a lot and a lot of things

well, i think i got dozens and dozens of things to say. A lot of things happened after my last entry and my next few entries were just simply plain advertisements as I was really too lazy to discuss about it. maybe this entry will be rather long? I don't know? I don't intend to structure my past events by days lo. Coz. too many things liao lo.

Okay, I will just beginning with latest happening on Rotaract Club. We just had our installation and induction ceremony and i think it was quite ok. Except some things could have been improved. Hmms. With so many members in our club. I think about 40% of them know what's an installation le. That is a good sign, i personally feel.

A lot of last minute things :(. Stupid malay cultural club. Play out 2 days before the real day. We had to ask choir to sing outside the LT lo. Poor thing. haha. After the installation, I think we still actually had time to let them sing inside. Then a lot of last min thingys. The SCC got not enough people to carry their instruments. So diaoz. Then me, weishing and wilson went to help. Wilson very attitude de lo. Ask him take weishing's car - don't want. Then because of SCC late we had Guest of honour's speech before the performance.

Well, i think wilson helps a lot. I am really very thankful to wilson for his help in the logistics. He pays money for the food and never eat. Last year, he also like this. Carrying the directional signs/poles was a real pain. OMG. really hated it. Why others directional signs so light? Ours so heavy? Stupid EM lo. Haix.

But overall I think it was quite well done. I am very happy that a lot of members came. I am glad that my naggings were not wasted. Haha. All the phone calls, sms, etc.

Some things missed out was the toasting- missed out. I think i should have reinforced it. I got all the water bottles in the club house lo. haix. Another was the presentation of past events. Qian jun should have did a short talk of the past events as this is madatory. One member told me: they show pictures they also don't know what are all these and all.

food was not very nice also :( Should have bought better food. Haha. But we had a very tight budget and spent as little as possible.


the next thingy was common test. I think common test - i don't think i will do well. I very scared I will fail. Die le la. :( the badly done common tests are HRM and FMGT. The slightly better done are also not exactly great either. I think i nv study enough and there is simply too little time to study and absorb. My absorption rate is very low! :( I always need a lot time to memorise and understand these stuff. i feel so upset. I very scared if I have to retake any test because i fail! And i hate to see Ds and Cs :( How? I feel so horrible.


The next thingy is I left sentosa le. Well any feelings? I felt quite okay somehow. I feel it is rather natural? I felt a bit sad ah. But I will miss merlion more that musical fountain. Perhaps the staff I liked them much more? michael may appear cold, but he's very nice. Same goes with all the others. I like saras, alvin -- my ics. They are simply great people. They also still call me to work lo. Although I not working MF le but I still loved merlion. merlion ooi!!!! hahas.

The people i miss sentosa would be the poor meng - shahira lo. I think I am not very close to any of the staff of MF except daus and shahira. Then rest? Ordinary friend like justin, edison, aishah also ok ar. But the new batch - i don't think i really mix around or talk with them much. Or is it they don't really want to talk with me? Or is it i got attitude problem? Hmmm. 11months at sentosa. i think i had enough of it somehow. Now my weekends don't feel so tight. But i think i will lose contact with poor daus. Daus and I like never talked for a long time already? haix.

Even I stayed on, would i be treasured at MF? I don't know ah. Working at MF used to be the most 'in' thing (quoted from shahira) and now it became so mundane. Daus also la. Work so little. One month - he works like 4 times only? Then some months he work 1-2 times? zzz. When i worked at MF, i always feel so lonely. Nungky is forever so cool to me and rosnah would be like talking to nungky in malay leaving me out. boring positions and i would be just concentrate on greeting the guests. Haix.

I am quite a loner sometimes but sometimes i like to talk to a good friend/friend about anything. Being lonely all the time is all not the great. Then no one takes the bus - 188 even some could. I really don't understand why. Like rizal. He can take 188 1 la. :(


Working at media research consultants have been fun. Although always using the phone may not be so fun afterall, but i still like to be someone annoymous on the phone calling people to check on stuff. Very fun. I sometimes meet ppl with grandmother stories but some are rather enriching lol.

Recently, I went for a focus group. Its on doughnuts! haha. Nice doughnuts. Managed to earn $50 after this focus group. And free sampling also. hahas.


Another thingy was my project- AWWA Open House was quite successful :) We went on tues to put flyers door to door and sat was the open house itself.

Well, on the first day - the day whereby we put flyers door to door, i am quite disappointed with the world of click system. Well the people refused to try to mix around as they were too comfortable with their own group. like my class de 5 flowers. They just stick themselves and refused to mix around. The clan tmod- is another 1. The suriani,yunpei,eunice and yanhan clad also. Leaving me - I was all alone going to somewhere ulu to give out flyers. I really felt very 'pai chi' lo. Why no one is willing to pair up with me to do such a thingy at night? :( I tried to act cool when i realised the result that i am forced to do the flyer distribution house to house alone at night. When i stand close to these clicks i find i have nothing to say to them or is it they don't accept me either? This is very frustrating sometimes. My good friends are outside my course and outside np. Like i joined np rotaract. I was a loner also. Should i have found a good friend before i entered rotaract? This is very puzzling. When i join things alone, I don't like it in the end but i still lived on. Liked I joined The Cafe Cartel. Sentosa also. some places like T-est i managed to find friends. some I could not really find one that can really click.

The click system haunts me in NP also. Our class is simply segmented into clicks and its so difficult to get things done, especially projects. Why can't everyone be more open like the past. When i was in sec sch. I remember the people of the past are much more open and doing projects was not so problematic. I still have to live in np clickless till year 3. I feel so disappointed! how i wish i can transfer to a class that i hab more people who are more open to accept. haix!

The second day was okay. I generally feel its quite good! :) I am glad that royston is a very open person and we chatted a lot of things. but i think i and jansen slacked quite a lot tt day. LOL.

well, last discussion on KBOX. had so much fun singing! haha. Long time nv sing le bahx? Then it was so enriching. haha. Sang like crazy i think. Jansen Enqing sang like so high. Then charmaine sing all the junjie de songs. Her voice quite special lo i think. hahas. 12mn to 6am. I think this is my first time k-ing through the night. ahhaa. Then when go home in the mrt keep sleeping lo. until reach jurong east then i realised! hahahha. Then in the bus i overshot my stop! omg. Then luckly its a feeder bus, so i continued to sleep till it went back to my house area. hahahaha.

Then kit was laughing all the way. Royston and zhang dong liang. soon chye and his old songs. alvin and his jay rapping. jansen and his english song, ben xiao hai. hahaha.

sorry for this long entry. too many things happened le. :)